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November 20, 2010

timeline kita....

assalamualaikum...
spatutnya malam ni ana dah berada di atas bas dalm perjalanan ke KMB(Kolej Muslim Brotherhood bak kata naqib ana ,AM)
tapi atas sebab musabab yg x dapat dielakkan, ana akan bertolak esok malam...
jadi, dapat lepak kat rumah kejap....
haha~
sblum masuk kmb dan dihantui kerja2 ku yg tertangguh...
xpelah... tader keje, boring,..
banyak kerja, mengeluh...
afiq oh afiq....

jadi malam ini hanya sekadar ingin berkongsi sepatah dua pandangan ana dalam hal kehidupan..
ana tahu ana masih setahun jagung dalam soal kehidupan...
tapi kita mungkin terlepas pandang apa yang kita lalui selama ini...

kita sebagai manusia suka melihat sesuatu dari sudut pandang yang jauh...
kononnya berfikiran jauhlah....
"konon"...
tanpa kita sedari...
kita 'mungkin'terlepas pandang beberapa perkara penting...

kita rujuk kembali saat-saat kita melakukan kemungkaran...
adakah saat itu?
renung-renungkan...
jika ada, teruskan membaca...
jika tiada, bersyukurlah kepada Allah...

"demi masa, sesungguhnya manusia berada dalam kerugian. kecuali orang2 yang beriman dan beramal soleh"

rujuk ayat di atas... masa yang ditekankan...
ana disini bukanlah mentafsir ayat di atas...
ana belum cukup ilmu untuk mentafsir...
ana hanya menyampaikan pandangan ana dalam soal masa...

dalam sejarah misalnya...
sejarawan selalu merujuk kepada timeline...
iaitu jaluran masa atau aturan sesuatu itu mengikut tempoh masanya....
berbalik kepada saat kita membuat kemungkaran...
kita mestilah selalu ingat bahawa sedikit kenikmatan di atas dunia tiada taranya dengan nikmat di akhirat...
kita sebagai manusia suka membanding-banding....
jadi disini...
ana ingin membandingkan timeline itu sendiri....
*ikut arahan di bawah

1. lukis satu garisan lurus yg panjang
2. buat timeline masa anda hidup dan masa anda selepas mati
3. tak tahu bila anda meninggal?(ada ke org yg taw) senang jer...tandakan purata umur manusia(lbih kurang 63 tahun mengikut umur nabi Muhammad S.A.W. semasa kewafatan beliau)
4. di sbelah kiri tanda anda, tuliskan "dunia"
5. di sebelah kanan tanda anda pula, tuliskan "akhirat"
6. letak pensel/pen ketepi dan renungkan...

lihat time line anda....
ana punye jawapan disini....
sama ke tak kita punya jawapan?
pelikkah jawapan ana?
bagi ana terangkan...
line merah yang kecik 2 tanda purata umur manusia...
sebelah kiri dunia dan sebelah kanan akhirat...
kenapa garisan ana x berhenti?
adakah akhirat ada penghabisannya?
anda jawab sendiri...

jika merujuk dari segi masa...
masa di akhirat itu ibarat 'infinity'
manakala masa di dunia dapat dikira....pling lama pun boleh mencapai 200 tahun...
tapi itu masih boleh dikira...
apalah sangat 200 tahun tu kalau nak dibandingkan dengan infiniti....
jadi kalau mengikut pengiraan ana....
garisan ana kurang peliknya...
garisan sahabat-sahabat bagaimana?
line merah di tengah2 kah?
ke di hujung kiri?
renungkanlah duhai sahabat...

kembali kepada kemungkaran...
berbaloikah kita melakukan kemungkaran yang hanya mampu dinikmati sebentar sahaja?
berbaloikah jika kita dihukum oleh Allah S.W.T kerana nikmat sementara?

bandingkanlah teman-temanku...
analoginya,
kamu memilih untuk makan coklat ketika gigi kamu sedang sakit....
nikmat coklat beberapa minit....
sakit gigi berpanjangan sehingga ke beberapa hari....
pilihlah sendiri....

itu badan kamu bukan badan saya...
saya hanya menyatakan pendapat...
kerana "tidak sempurna iman seseorang itu selagi dia tidak mengasihi saudaranya sepertimana dia menyayangi dirinya sendiri"

sekian sahaja dari saya....
syukran jazilan....

November 15, 2010

being home..

assalamualaikum w.b.t
act, i've been at home 4 about 3 days...
giving my percption loudly...
nothing changes...
juz da same atmsphere...
nver be brave enuf 2 xpress dis...
my home is like...
like my home...
i deny any changes...
n i deny any waves that have been through...
same as it were 5 years ago...
with that...
n this...
n all those...

despite all this...
i still manage to keep calm mind...
a lil bit of happiness...
since i'm at home safe n sound...
n lil bit frustration...
since some things have gone...

truly, i've been settling better in KMB...
starting 2 make rightful things...
starting 2 feel right...
starting 2 feel sumthing right is wrong...
n starting 2 feel sumthing wrong is right...
what actually happened 2 me?
am i at puberty??
crazy afiq...

n wut is happening...
i can't say that i've changed..
i would say KMB changed me...
into wut type of person?
that's not a question for me to answer...

i'm on9-ing again..
after a cut with the world wide web...
a social cut act...
for my own good also...
n i've look the differences in this...
there and there...
a little but a lot....

i rcgnised some changes in my life:
some profile pic's in fb have changed(they do eventually rite?)
i've unable to read some of my fav blogs nowadays(thats a lil bit cruel..for me only though)
the status of fb have started 2 increase in their level of humour n literature...(haha~)
google is bcoming the 1st site for me 2 search 4 sumthing...(yah0o was the prvious)
wiki is widely being used in asignment-making industry...(since ever?)
i've being in the mode of an iceberg in the middle of the sahara...(such a pathetic-_-')
i've also being in the mode of a hawk whenever i see 'that'...(urgh... how 2 stop it?~)
i've realised that make my mind focus in evrything is IMPOSSIBLE...(i repeat.. impossible...)
n my mind is like a beast with soft fur outside and metal core in the inside...(whatever it means..)

n all this days have made me regret some...
or slightly... of my decision...
as i were now... a different man..
with a different point of view...
if i have made a mistake in the past..
please for give me...
n if i make a mstake in the future... please.please.please.
hit my head... and yell at me...
"Afiq! U're WRONG!" and correct me at that time...
please...
do not be like some person...
that see me made mistakes...
and just being silent...saying 2 yourself that u're not gonna make the same mistake..
n if u think u're taking care of my feeling...
u're wrong... cuz u hurt me more than u can imagine...
so, please...
once again...
tell.me.if.i'm.making.a.mistake....
or.two.-_-'

till then...
just expressing my feeling...
salamualaikum~

November 7, 2010

l!GhT !Ns!De Me

bismillahirrahmanirrahim...

with the name of Allah The Most Gracious and The Most Merciful...
i am grateful enough cuz this feeling U give me...
feeling of secured and happiness..
i beg for forgiveness for all my sins...

since i was able to learn...
to think....
and to feel...
i always left sumthing...

O God...
for every feeling u let me to have...
i wouldn't have a word...
or a even a sentence...
to express my feelings...

love.like.miss.
i cried and cried...
but it makes me calmer than ever...
thank goodness i'm alive to felt all these....

but there's time...
when i forgot...
at that particular time...
please make me remember...
to all those times...
to all those memories...
to all those that lit me up...
when i'm in the darkness...
please help me remember...

in this world...
i see pain...
i see cried...
i see anger...
but i also see love...
i see the joy...
i see the laugh...

and it makes me think...
what gives human the right to express all this feelings...
i like the soft but hard...
but i hate the hard but soft...
is it proper for me?
is it even fair?
to love and to hate....
to take and to throw...

i'm floating in my own tears...
inside me...
that keeps me floating...
away n away...
from the real me...
and by floating...
i met her...

that gives me joy when i'm sad...
that gives me hope when i'm depressed...
that gives me light when i'm in the darkness...
until i remember back...
what brings her to me...
it's You...

for all the light that shine inside me...
i just wanna let u know...
u shine me as if darkness were never there...
Thank You.


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