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November 15, 2010

being home..

assalamualaikum w.b.t
act, i've been at home 4 about 3 days...
giving my percption loudly...
nothing changes...
juz da same atmsphere...
nver be brave enuf 2 xpress dis...
my home is like...
like my home...
i deny any changes...
n i deny any waves that have been through...
same as it were 5 years ago...
with that...
n this...
n all those...

despite all this...
i still manage to keep calm mind...
a lil bit of happiness...
since i'm at home safe n sound...
n lil bit frustration...
since some things have gone...

truly, i've been settling better in KMB...
starting 2 make rightful things...
starting 2 feel right...
starting 2 feel sumthing right is wrong...
n starting 2 feel sumthing wrong is right...
what actually happened 2 me?
am i at puberty??
crazy afiq...

n wut is happening...
i can't say that i've changed..
i would say KMB changed me...
into wut type of person?
that's not a question for me to answer...

i'm on9-ing again..
after a cut with the world wide web...
a social cut act...
for my own good also...
n i've look the differences in this...
there and there...
a little but a lot....

i rcgnised some changes in my life:
some profile pic's in fb have changed(they do eventually rite?)
i've unable to read some of my fav blogs nowadays(thats a lil bit cruel..for me only though)
the status of fb have started 2 increase in their level of humour n literature...(haha~)
google is bcoming the 1st site for me 2 search 4 sumthing...(yah0o was the prvious)
wiki is widely being used in asignment-making industry...(since ever?)
i've being in the mode of an iceberg in the middle of the sahara...(such a pathetic-_-')
i've also being in the mode of a hawk whenever i see 'that'...(urgh... how 2 stop it?~)
i've realised that make my mind focus in evrything is IMPOSSIBLE...(i repeat.. impossible...)
n my mind is like a beast with soft fur outside and metal core in the inside...(whatever it means..)

n all this days have made me regret some...
or slightly... of my decision...
as i were now... a different man..
with a different point of view...
if i have made a mistake in the past..
please for give me...
n if i make a mstake in the future... please.please.please.
hit my head... and yell at me...
"Afiq! U're WRONG!" and correct me at that time...
please...
do not be like some person...
that see me made mistakes...
and just being silent...saying 2 yourself that u're not gonna make the same mistake..
n if u think u're taking care of my feeling...
u're wrong... cuz u hurt me more than u can imagine...
so, please...
once again...
tell.me.if.i'm.making.a.mistake....
or.two.-_-'

till then...
just expressing my feeling...
salamualaikum~

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